Rise from the Ashes

Ever since I was born here,
And I watched others around me,
I swore never to make the same mistakes as them.
I made sure I was clean, or at least tried hard to be.
But alas the bug that flew around, found a weak moment in me!


It bit me worst, worse than ever before,
I came crashing down hard, on the cold floor below,
All expectations shattered and pride wounded so bad,
I bled till I thought I had no more to flow.


But life ain’t so easy, it doesn't leave you to die,
It keeps you alive, to watch and survive,
And believe me it kills as people watch you from above,
And mock and judge as you stay fallen below.


Nothing you pray can make time go back,
To change that one step, or wrong turn on the right track,
It was done, your true place was shown to you.
And all you can do now is learn what it really is about you,
That made you fall so horribly, flat on your back!


A man who is fallen may be ridiculed and judged,
He will be taught of his place for a while,
But a true man is one who can push himself up,
Can show the world he flawed but has now risen up.


A man who never falls, is remembered as never wronged,
But a man who has tasted a fall and managed to move on,
Is one who can truly say he will never wrong,
For once out of hell no one wants to goes there again,
'Coz it is only then that we truly value our Heaven.


I am struggling to get up, to heal my wounds,
To rise up in my own fallen eyes.
To once again regain all the respect that is lost,
And soar higher than I did ever before.


Nothing lost can’t be regained except time that has passed,
Every test once failed can be again passed,
It is easy to fall, but the struggle begins now,
To first forgive myself and then prove to those around...
One fall is alright at least now you know,
Never to be Weak, for the life that we own,
Just cannot be experienced if you stay fallen below!

Proverbial!

“An Eye for an Eye makes the whole world Blind”
Mahatma Gandhi
This is the first time I am writing on request. I was asked by Little Edward to write on the above very famous saying. He wanted to know my interpretation! Could have just asked me, to be honest. But then, why not, adds a post to my blog doesn't it? ;)

When people hear this proverb most think of things like revenge or 'tit for tat'. But you know what comes to my mind? The saying -
“In the country of the Blind the One-Eyed man is King”.. Jennifer Speake..
I even have a visual in my head! Actually I didn't even get the significance of what I had related to until I gave it a bit more thought.
In an ideal world (one that Bapu maybe imagined he could create) the statement probably stands, that an eye for eye will make the world blind. But the truth is we aren't all stupid. Not the same grades of stupid anyway. So when two people make each other 'blind' a third is always watching and gets smarter...
And thus the line that immediately follows in my head, among the blind the 'one-eyed' rules. (Sigh)

True it might not be the exact context in which the One-eyed line was originally framed but you get the point.

Revenge is not a bad a thing so long as it doesn't make you an idiot or an obsessive freak. We all would like to teach the local bully a lesson, or give the evils of society a taste of their own medicine. In fact if we had the time and resources to avenge all we would, but unfortunately we don't.

So we satisfy ourselves with the thought that 'what goes around comes back around' and the very old 'if I do what he did to me what is the difference between him and me?' syndrome.
But to be very honest that's just an excuse. Very very few people out of us are those who do not take revenge because they are actually stronger and honestly feel the situation is lower than them. 99% of us all refrain from getting back because we are weak and do not have the guts to do so. So our defence? An eye for eye.. (you got it)..
Guaranteed most reading disagree but think about it. If you really had the opportunity to trip the guy who tripped you in front of the whole class, humiliated you and got you laughed at, wouldn't you? I would. If given the opportunity, why not? And if you ask the old question of - difference between you two? The difference is obvious – motive. He tripped you to humiliate (sadistic) and you tripped to teach a lesson (noble).
According to the karma charts it is the motive behind every action that counts and not the action itself.
Now please I am not asking you to assume that you should plot and start running around avenging all that has happened to you. If the opportunity comes your way use it, but do not go out of the way to give back, for the simple reason that the momentary pleasure isn't worth the time and energy wasted and in all probability the guy will go and bully or ill-treat someone else in frustration or out of habit anyway!
“Revenge is sweetest when it's cold” .. is another line in the context but, on a different yet parallel line, waiting for the heat of the moment to pass and then plotting revenge is doing you much more harm than the other guy. You know why? The guy has done his crap, laughed, and\or forgotten and moved on. But you are carrying the baggage of the very crappy incident as you plot. You are carrying the negative vibrations with yourself and ruining your own thought process and health.
And in most situations there is nothing you can do anyway. Like if someone punches or elbows you in the train, someone you cant even identify what are you to do? Instead of fuming, let it go. That will do you much better than boiling for no reason.

Bottom line? If any of the above makes sense the bottom line is pretty simple. Avenge when it just 'happens' as a flow of events with negligible efforts. Going out of the way isn't worth it. Firstly because its too much of a waste of time and energy with not much constructive outcome and secondly to avenge them you need to think like them making you an even bigger idiot than he is. And finally when you are busy plotting, a third person will for sure take advantage of your 'blindness'!

Happy Little Edward? :)