Writing Soothes Me

I started writing when I was about 7 and had anger issues, my mom told me write it all down 'It will calm you'.

So I wrote. It wasn't really calming. But when I re-read what I had written, I felt, 'Hey that sounds good!'. All anger forgotten. That did calm.
So I continued. My diary was born. But later I had urges to write about issues, things other than my own self. My 'secret' diary didn't suffice.

I started writing things I felt, the 'vivid' excuses I used to narrate.

Then I had emotions I needed delivered, but stories weren't good enough. They were too direct. So I wrote poems. And the process continued.

After a point I realized that writing did soothe me. It did calm me. More than a confrontation or a fight, writing calmed me. Even if it were just a letter or a mail to someone who I needed to say something. Good or bad. It always made me feel better when I could communicate through written words.

Something soothing and whole about that. A feeling of complete communication I suppose. Sure somethings you are better off yelling at someone, or saying it out loud (and you should). But I often found myself in situations where I wasn't satisfied with the way things go (usually when angry or frustrated) and so I wrote.

Then I began enjoying writing fiction, short stories, novels and enjoyed the feeling of how the story, situations, characters were created by me.
It gives me immense pleasure to write. But only when I want to write, what I want to write. You cannot sit with a gun at my head and make me write! It just suddenly flows and I need to either - get up in the middle of the night, run out of the bathroom, stop while eating or travelling and pen my thoughts. At least a bit, something I can go about on later.
Sometimes it's frustrating. The biggest urges come when I am studying. Supposed to be learning all that damn GK and here all I can think of is the next plot in my most recent creations!

The brain is really weird, most creative just when you don't need it to be! But now I am quite used to it, even look forward to it. I find myself typing at frantic speed, keeping up with my thoughts, the books lying beside forgotten.

Ahhh yes writing definitely soothes me!!! :D